My grandma, who is 84 years old, is in the hospital. Her doctor said she has Parkinson’s – she doesn’t. That is the good news. The bad news is her heart. She is having chest pains and nitro is helping. However, they need to do an angiogram and possibly angioplasty to try to help her. The fear is that she’ll go under and never wake up.

I feel guilty. I know I shouldn’t. However, we passed on going to Minnesota for Thanksgiving this year. Too quick of a trip is what we said. What if that was my “last chance” to see her again? I missed my opportunity before my grandpa died. This is like dejavu for me. I have a lump in my throat.

There is also drama on my favorite board. Things have been said by some people about others that is hurting me. I can’t shake it. It wasn’t even about me, but it WAS about people whom I care about. Why can’t I let this go? I think I feel too much for these women. They are so close to me that the thought of any of them being upset, angry or anything at all makes me sick to my stomach. I truly do wear my heart on my shirtsleeves most of the time. While it can be good, in a time like this, it can be bad too. I just want to run into my room, throw myself on my bed and have a good old cry!

I am trying to end on a positive note, so I will talk about my daughter taking an ordinary shipping box and turning it into her “hat store.” Yes, “hat store.” Do NOT ask me where she got that one. I had to tape up the sides for her last night. But, this morning, the box had mutated into the “tool workshop bench” and held her tool box and brother’s hunting cap. I so love my daughter’s imagination. So, when I feel like I want to string her up by her toes, I just remember things like this and it helps me to smile. I hope you are now smiling too!

We were at Walgreens today and my mom says that she forgot to tell me something……..

When we were at Wal-mart, she was talking to Emma. My daughter proceeds to tell her that 3 years ago, she was a puppy. My mom said that she was trying to contain her laughter. She says, really, and what are you now? She says, “I am a big girl….but I did use to be a puppy.”

Do NOT ask me where she got that idea!! I actually almost fell over laughing in the parking lot hearing that story.

I just love that little girl more and more every single day!!!!

Wow. What a weekend!!! I have been busier than ever with the holiday, shopping and getting caught up with things in general!

Thursday morning Tim went hunting and about noon we headed to his Aunt Rose’s for lunch. It was small and very nice. I really enjoyed our visit. The kids had a good time too, which is really the most important thing of all!

Friday morning Mom and I were up and at Kohl’s by 4 am!! We are insane, I know it! But, we had SUCH an amazing time. I have only a couple of things to purchase and I am done Christmas shopping….and it is not even December yet!! It feels really good.

The most amazing part is that I used cash for it all!! WOO HOO!!! It was odd to come home with all of those receipts and NOT have to sit down to input it all into Quicken and then get that instantaneously, overwhelming, sick to my stomach feeling. Cash is a GOOD thing!

I also got the house all decorated for the holidays. I am actually “recycling” a lot of the decorations I have never used. They are still new in their boxes. I keep storing them in hopes of using them. That just is not going to happen. So, they are going to find new homes this year. It also helps since we are on a budget.

I also got the Santa gifts all looked over and put away. Looks like the guy in the big red suit is going to do my children very good this year…..he just has to pick up some socks for Emma’s little stocking is all! I even wrapped everything that I bought. So, the tree looks so pretty.

Today was a day to return the things that I bought that I didn’t end up needing. I also had to go to the store to get some gift sacks, diapers and the like. Oh, speaking of diapers. I purchased a big box as the price was less than $20. So, I finish my shopping, pay and then realize that something didn’t seem right. The diapers rang up at $26! So, I go back and check the shelf thinking I misread it. Nope. It was suppose to be $19.37.

So, I get in line and the guy at customer service was so nice. There was another gal there and she said that the bar coding is wrong. I said, that it is marked at $19.37 so whether that is right or wrong, I should get it for the lesser price. So, I ended up getting my money back. I am proud that they stepped up and did the RIGHT thing.

This evening, I caught up on my forums, balanced my cash funds, got Christmas packages put together for mailing and finished wrapping my gifts. It is now 11:25 and I am waiting for my sheets to finish drying so I can go to bed. What surprises me most is that I am not even remotely tired!! I think though, if I were to sit in the quiet and do nothing for long, I’d be out like a light.

So, with that, I am going to go check the dryer, make my bed and fall into a deep sleep until my son wakes me to nurse in 5 hours!! Nighty Night!!!

My mom didn’t get the job. I just can not believe it. They hired someone who I didn’t think was qualified, but apparently, she was. My mom feels that she is letting me down, which couldn’t be further from the truth.

Yes, I would LOVED her to live out here closer to us. However, I wanted HER to be happy most of all. That is what matters….she has to love her job. Which she does currently.

What makes me most angry is that the manager had the balls to offer her the SAME POSITION out her. No raise. No job change. Nada. When she turned it down, I think he was shocked. For some reason, it appears these people think she ONLY applied for the job to move to Kansas City. That was only part of it. She wanted the challenge. To be told that she isn’t good enough for a promotion but she is good enough to move and do the same thing is just a slap in the face.